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44. Two Roads
and she looked down the two identical stony paths,
knowing full well how different their destinations were.
Which one to take? Which one to walk?
The two roads stretched ahead of her,
full of mysterious unknown...
Her heart or her head?
Which one will carry her through?
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a dream all too familiar...
so i closed my eyes and went to sleep,
surprise surprise i dream of you.
you stared until you reached my soul,
my hidden thoughts,
the other side of me.
you hugged me, tight.
so so tight.
you never let go.
and you kiss me, hesitant at first,
then fast as our
breaths cut short.
and i fall in love with you
over
and over again.
but deep in my heart
i know it's a dream
and my eyes flick open.
pain. sweet pain.
i'm losing my mind.
this emotion you make me feel.
it's killing me.
come find me. quick.
i need you.
it felt so real. the kiss.
our kiss.
the warmth of your lips against mine.
your touch.
your scent.
the passion.
is this love?
a dream? a nightmare?
please come find me. quick.
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no45_Illusion.
you tell me 'goodbye, i'll see you soon' and i start to walk away, wishing, yearning for you and your safe, home-like aura to stop me. our hands slip, our fingers drop from our tight grasp. and right before the pain of goodbye hits my heart, you grab my hand, you pull me back and encase me in your loving hug once more. i told you once, how i hated these cold winter months, simply because i always felt like i could never hold myself together, that even wrapping myself up small still isn't enough to close that 'falling apart' emotion. you remember, just like you remember every other little thing about me, no matter how silly or inconsequential. you hold me close and reassuringly snug, i love how your arms engulf me and surround me in this emotion called 'love'. and as my heart softens, you whisper: 'i'm sorry, i don't know how to let you go'. and i'll close my eyes as my whole body realises this is what it's like to be held without the feeling of falling to pieces and tell you: 'it's oka
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You taught me how to swing.
You taught me how to swing when I was 5 years old.
We walked through the icy air, to the park.
Our park.
And you told me I was swinging, even though you
were clearly, gently pushing me up, everytime I came down.
I saw, I knew. I didn't care.
I was just happy you were there.
You taught me how to swing when I was 10 years old.
As you threw on that on jazzy number,
on your old, run-down record player.
You pulled me off the sofa, and spun me around the living room.
Round and round and round,
and like that, you taught me how to swing dance.
Until your record player quit for the day,
but it didn't matter much to me.
Your joyous, care-free laugh was music enough to me.
You taught me how to swing when I was 14 years old.
When I came home, with tears in my eyes,
mascara on my sleeves and a broken heart in my chest.
He hurt me, and it was my first feel of heartbreak pain.
You held me close, and made me smile.
You held out your fist, and taught me how to swing a punch at t
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no35_Hold My Hand.
he always used to walk with flair in his soles,
his mind in his heart and his heart buried deep below.
he never used to listen, and made his own knowledge grow.
he took the stars, and turned them into paper,
he held them close, then thrust them in the air, wishing:
"please God, oh please, let my love be fair".
and fair she was, and kind and lovely too,
but no one had told him, that her insides were too ugly to bear.
she saw the boy and grabbed his hand,
together they ran through her glitter coated land,
shining, glorious.
she took him everywhere, manipulated him as he tried to show her his stars.
one day, she thrust those stars into the air,
as well his secrets and his wishes, bitterly saying:
"stop it, you dreaming fool, I don't even care".
he was far too blinded by her glitter land to see her cruelness within,
and now he paid the price.
Dreaming fool he was, as his tears burnt away the light in his eyes,
but not for wishing on his paper stars,
but for believing his love
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no14_Smile.
"so, tell me, what's in a smile?" he grins, and brushes back her hair and she thinks deep in thought.
"so many misleading things", is her answer and he reveals confusion in his dark, silver eyes in the moonlight.
"how'd you mean?"
"well, there's the obvious, such as happiness, joy, laughter and beauty", and her eyes shimmer as her lips prick up at one sides.
"and the not so obvious?", he presses, curiously.
"sadness. The things a smile can mask. Anger, misery, lack of hope and faith and --" but he cuts her off.
"and, do you mask these things behind that beautiful smile of yours? Tell me, what's in your smile?", his eyes smoulder with trust, all just for her, all just for her answer to be "no".
She bows her head, the piece of previously brushed back hair, falling back in front of her face, shadowing her eyes and she quietly murmurs to him...
"hm, a smile can hide anything these days".
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no93_Give Up.
and i'll ignore all their good-hearted advice
and their sensible, oh so ever responsible warnings.
I'll hide their negativity away with my momentary doubts.
I'll push away those danger signs,
and those blaring unhappy endings,
and their 'no good will come of this'.
I'll take their unanswerable question of
'why would you want to get involved with someone like him?'
and twist and mould it until
I can make some sense of it.
[of course, I never do,
and i'll always cease to find the answer to it]
but to me, that's okay.
because, hey, isn't life a big unanswerable question in itself?
so I don't care if you say you've changed,
and if they all say you're bad.
Because I knew you
and maybe, I still do.
Call me stupid, or deluded,
but I'll just brush past them like strangers on the street.
I'm not giving up on you, and that's that.
Because the thing that scares me more
than their blunt, obvious warnings,
is me giving up on you,
when I could  be the only one who can help you.
and
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noO5_Seeking Solace.
[him]im losing my way in this crazy thing they call "life"
        this silly mess, that is "my existance".
[her]im wishing, im dreaming, im such a useless creature.
        i want to find a way to become "something"...anything.
[him]shoot me, hit me, break me down,
        i'm worth nothing, unloved and broken.
[her]im trapped in this never-ending routine
        of never breaking free, of never finding me.
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[him]someone find me, {i} miss the touch of another's hand in mine.
        i yearn for the warmth of a real hug.
        Don't fear me, {love}.
[her]i want to live for someone, i want to be ne
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noO2_Love.
- love [noun] - to feel strongly for something, somewhere or someone.
- to be in love [verb] - to learn to not live for just yourself, but to live for someone
                                                          else as
                                                          one entity.
- to fall in love [something stronger than the point above] -
          
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no16_Questioning
what if you love someone
who everyone else says
is wrong for you?
what if you open up
and confide in someone
who you haven't actually met yet?
what if you love so much
that all you think are
these stupid, stupid questions?
what if you are so scared of love
that you never realise
just how right this 'wrong' could be?
or maybe what if
all i'm writing about is utter rubbish
and i should even be writing at all?
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no26_Tears.
                                                                     take a blow
                                                                               drop a tear
              
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no70_67percent.
i'm 67% in love with you,
because i'm sure i love you more than half.
i'm 67% in love with you,
because 10% is far too little to contain the numerous butterflies
in my belly, everytime you place your lips close to my ear
and whisper
'don't worry, i won't go anywhere, i'll stay with you.
I promise'.
i'm 67% in love with you,
because to only say 45% is insulting
to the bond we share. It's disgraceful to
the many times you've made me laugh.
Because it's nowhere near enough.
i'm 67% in love with you,
because, if i love you this much
in such a short time, then to love you 100%
would be too much for me to handle.
Truth: I love you 67%
because i'm afraid i'll hit 100 and my love for you will have to stop.
After all, that's what the '%' sign means, right?
I'm afraid of what comes after 100.
So that's why i'd rather love you 67% forever.
Than to love you 100% and cut things short.
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heart strings - dream land.
nerves, nerves, nerves as I walk up to meet you,
and you grin a huge, teeth showing grin,
as you take two quick steps towards me and
wrap your long, safe arms around my short frame.
You laugh as you say 'I promised you a hug, right?'
and the nerves, nerves, nerves start to fade.
blush, blush, blush as you take your seat next to me,
making the sofa sink a little as you get comfy.
You offer me some candy and I shake my head while you stare.
'What?' I ask, because stare and smile is all you seem to do.
'You're even more stunning in person' you say in awe.
and I blush, blush, blush some more.
laugh, laugh, laugh as you joke your lame jokes
and tell me 'wow, you really are pretty short!',
but I don't care and nudge you in the side.
You remind me how silly I am for ever liking that guy,
you like to call 'prick' and 'imbecile',
and I realise you're right about him, but never admit it.
Laugh, laugh, laugh, oh we laugh our cares away.
boom, boom, boom my heart bangs, hard against my chest
as yo
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i write. i have a lot of thoughts.
i draw. because i always have, it's all i seem to know.
i photograph. it captures the best memories.

*my gallery is mine alone. So please, please ask, if you must use any of it for anything.

Favourites

After the fall - 3rd day of 31 day painting challe by jane-beata After the fall - 3rd day of 31 day painting challe :iconjane-beata:jane-beata 2,769 187 The last leaf by IPPO-Lita The last leaf :iconippo-lita:IPPO-Lita 41 31 Time Crash by Cataclysm-X Time Crash :iconcataclysm-x:Cataclysm-X 6,043 879 LB by MaryRiotJane LB :iconmaryriotjane:MaryRiotJane 161 45 Schweriner Schloss - Side View by silviae Schweriner Schloss - Side View :iconsilviae:silviae 4 0 Snow expedition by IPPO-Lita Snow expedition :iconippo-lita:IPPO-Lita 12 6 Make you smile by andrahilde Make you smile :iconandrahilde:andrahilde 4,958 211 Ablaze by moyan Ablaze :iconmoyan:moyan 4,564 266 Amor Fati by JaimeIbarra Amor Fati :iconjaimeibarra:JaimeIbarra 3,256 222 In Front Of by Loonaki In Front Of :iconloonaki:Loonaki 5,593 430 Morning Has Broken by La-Vita-a-Bella Morning Has Broken :iconla-vita-a-bella:La-Vita-a-Bella 3,119 648
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.murderous intent_
He's not breathing
I know.
Why did you do it?
Because I wanted you.
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Eye Tutorial by riefra Eye Tutorial :iconriefra:riefra 6,014 562 HS- I'm not lonely, So... by MOVED2-Lavender-Iced HS- I'm not lonely, So... :iconmoved2-lavender-iced:MOVED2-Lavender-Iced 5,909 378 Bubbleburry by InkedAliveByColors Bubbleburry :iconinkedalivebycolors:InkedAliveByColors 66 44
these favourites are here for a reason,
they made me smile. I could relate to them. They deserve praise. So take a peek. ^^

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MyBlankanvas
Create Yourself.
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J o d i e ~
i write. i have a lot of thoughts.
i draw. because i always have, it's all i seem to know.
i photograph. it captures the best memories.

I'm pretty amateur at times, but I'm still doing my fair share of learning, so criticise me nicely, please?

Make my day, make me smile.
Add a favourite or two. Leave a comment. Watch me.

I'll be sure to check out your gallery too ^^ ~


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Current Residence: The U.K.
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I've been so busy that I don't want to neglect art or DA ~
so I've decided to do variation 1 of the 1OO themes challenge - at last >.<
I'm looking verily forward to this ^^ [yes, verily is a word] ;)

1. Introduction
2. Love -- fav.me/d2ydpq0
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace -- fav.me/d2yna13
6. Break Away -- fav.me/d2y27zj
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile -- fav.me/d2z2m1z
15. Silence
16. Questioning -- fav.me/d2yd4aw
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears -- fav.me/d2y3acb
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand -- fav.me/d2zgypg
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads -- fav.me/d39jfn9
45. Illusion -- fav.me/d30gx1l
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67% -- fav.me/d2xxqhv
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up -- fav.me/d2yyhnr
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

check them out!~

  • Listening to: Hinder ~ by the way

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silviae Featured By Owner May 24, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks yet again for the watch~:3
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Lady-Marjulie Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the :+fav: on the poem "My Only Beat".
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MyBlankanvas Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2010
you're welcome :)
thank you for the watch :huggle:
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livesofbirds Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2010  Student Writer
and the watch. :giggle:
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livesofbirds Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2010  Student Writer
thank you for all of the favorites. :tighthug:
and i must say, you're stunning. :faint:
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MyBlankanvas Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2010
you're very welcome :huggle:
i really loved reading them ^^
and thank you, :)
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livesofbirds Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2010  Student Writer
you're welcome. :tighthug:
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citysirens Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2010
thank you!
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MyBlankanvas Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2010
you're welcome ^^
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Melusaaste Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2010
Thanks for the fav! :)
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